the big update
alright already. I'M SORRY!
.......and I'm not lying. I am. I know that I have not updated in a while. I have wanted to, but a lot has been going on, and I work full-time basically. I guess that is really no excuse though when you stay up on the internet until 3am bullshitting around though. No worries though, here I am feeding you something to do for the next ten minutes, or I suppose that depends on how well you read.
I really havent been up to much. I think I have developed a new shoe fetish that's about it. I want to buy a new car, so I don't think this here new 'shoe fetish' is a good thing. I got a raise at old navy, but I dont think 73 cents is going to get me anywhere. I make 6.73 now. Not bad, but meh I am an american and I always want more.
Me and my boyfriend are good. We had a very rocky week. The week after I got back from cornerstone. (which I will have to write about in another paragraph, because I now realize that I didn't tell you a summary of cornerstone) ((I think its because I was tired of reading other peoples experiences and why would you guys want to read one more of the same BS.)) It was probably one of the most scariest weeks of my life. I had no idea what was going to happen and I was so unmindful of the situation that I hardly knew what was going on, while it was going on. I cheated on him, but me being a lucky bastard, he took me back and now we are the best ever. Through this, we both have realized that we need to communicate more and have more of each other around so that the need for others is non-existant. I guess our relationship was a little defective, but it was nothing that couldnt be fixed. I am very happy with our current status right now and completely satisfied, which is weird. Usually when I have a boyfriend I always have it in the back of my head to find another one, a better one, but not this time. Call me crazy, but I am just being honest. I always want what is best for me, which is a good thing, and finally I feel like Matt is what is best for me. I am not looking or thinking that there is something better out there. I believe that matt is one of a kind and that I dont have to flirt with others to make me feel better. Completely satisfied has never graced itself with me, and now I think that it finally has because all I want to do lately is go PRAAAAIISE THE LORD JJEEEEESSSUS. Not really. But it's exciting. Not to brag, but everythign about our relationship is great. Our minds, our bodies, our souls are satisfied because of each other. We make eachother laugh and well, we are just really compatable. I don't know why I cheated on him in the first place. I guess it was on impulse and because I felt that matt and I were not meant to be at the time. Sure that is no excuse, but really I am not giving you one, I am just telling you how I feel. I am forgiven though.
I suppose I will give you the cornerstone paragraph now. Cornerstone was good and HOT. Holy shit was it hot. I hated sitting there and sweaty and having my pants stick to me (worst feeling EVER) The bands were good, It's a little blurry, but I remeber seeing mewithoutyou which was absolutly amazing. He is very dramatic and had flowers all over the stage. I saw norma jean and danced and that was really the only part I liked. The vocals sucked my ass, the music was good. I really only enjoyed that show though because I danced, it got my mind off how horrid the new singers vocal chords were. I saw this band called showbread which was very nice. These guys know how to rock, seriously. They had a great stage show and my eyes and ears were both happy. Let's see. I saw pedro the lion.. headnoise, crashdog, joy electric, unwed sailor (AMAZING) and others that were very enjoyable. I saw the evaluation and did their merch for them. They all looked very cute on stage. BUT FRANK oh god, i am going to kill frank. Actually, no I am not, i forgave him, but let me tell you what happened
Frank slept in the same dorm as me with the rest of the evaluation and josh and matt and frank has the tabacco habit of chewing and spitting WELL frank decided one night to take one of my empty propel bottles and spit that shit right in there so I can wake up in the morning, with my brain only half working to shake it and drink it!!! Holy vomit fest, that was the most disgusting thing that happened to me all week. Right after that shit hit my tongue I ran to the bathroom and puked up whatever was left that I had not digested in the night. YUCK.
anyway... I enjoyed cornerstone also because I got to see many people that I had not seen in two years. Some people that I have not talked to in god only knows how long. Specifically though, i was happy to talk to the following; dustin, richard, abram, fidget, jason... I also met some really cool new people like andy and stuff. I think when I am not burdened by the week off of work from cornerstone, then i am going to start saving some money so that I can head off to cali for a visit. I also want to see paul and tate. (Paul and tate, do you read this by the way?) So that's cornerstone in a nutshell. Conversation, music and HOT MOTHER EFFIN weather.
To sum this up some more, I'd just like to add that work is good. My two jobs are nice and not too hard. I like everyone I work with and I will be sad when some of the old navy works go away to college seeing as I will probably never leave and always have it be that I am 25 minutes away from chicago.
and that is that.
oh wait.. you didnt think I was going to leave this without a visual update as well!! well, darlings last but not leave I decided that going a little mod wouldnt hurt. So thats what I did. I decided to
xo
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